My own saturday.

I'm at Curve now. Alone. Waw. Its been a while since the last time i enjoying my time of being alone. Took my lunch at assam pedas (which cost me rm16 for the stupid nyonya curry laksa.even the chicken is not fresh), and then headed straight to Starbucks. I woke up this morning with feelings of wanted to be connected to the internet, so here i am surfing.

The real idea,(which i planned on Wednesday), is to kemas rumah, make it more tidy and presentable. Tapi, kesudahan nye, i lay bak on my sofa and watching cd. I wanted to watch Twilight(for the forth time), but my laptop cant read the cd so i decided to watch The Break Up. Wrong one. Luckily I'm not very gloomy today. I did cry, but not as worse as before. I slept for an hour before i got a call from someone who wanted to view one of my room. She already confirmed that she want the room. Thank God. I'm out of money. This pindah thingies made me pokai.

I met elle. Planning for something to do tonight. But we end up without having any decision. Plus, i am not in the mood to go anywhere. I'd rather stay at home. If there's any place that i want to go, it will be the club. But there's only two of us. So malas la. Maybe next week.

I'm staring blankly to the street. Hmm. Bosan jugak nih. Elle already went bak. I supposed to meet Badik but canceled. I still waiting for a friend to online.

I read a friend of mine blog's, I dont know who's the 'gal frens' that she dedicated the post to, but it did touched my heart. I havent talk to her for a quite long time now. Its not that i'm being sombong or something. It just that my gloomy mood made me choose to be in silent.

I dont know why i have to isolate my self from my friends.I dont even talk much to the sisterhoods nowadays. If its not Juju who called for my birthday lunch, i would just say no to it. But its Juju. I love Juju. I dont want to break her heart or make her pissed off.

I am still trying hard to figure out why all this happen. Why suddenly i have this kind of behavior, feelings and mood. I've been moving very slow. I am not as hyper as before. I used to laugh a lot, smile a lot and talking is my hobby. I knew PMS was part of it, but this is worse than pms.

I had the thought that this is happen because i feel bad for cursing an old friend who tried to be nice. He just need someone to talk to, and me, felt that he's very annoying. And now i missed his annoying presence.

Hope its not permanent. I'm sure I'll be OK. I'll be your old venill and wani again. Give me some times enjoying my own definition of happiness.