Crazee people everywhere.

Today is not a really busy day. Eventhough kitorg nyer event is like a week ahead je. But biasa lah..sume org chill. Bukan nye aku tak nak buat keje or aku tak nak tolong, but dah yg buat tu macam nak setelkan sume. Aku dok diam je la. Bila aku tanya dia cakap sume ok. Emm.

Harini aku turut meng-chase Ads4bucks for the payment. Basically, dorg ni cam da dinch us forever because of the events yg ala ala hancur haritu. Masa postmortem haritu mmg dorg ade point out beberapa problem. But the thing is, bukan sume salah kami yer. Please! Tapi biasa lah klien. Customer always right gitu. Bluerrghh!! Kau yang rasa kau hebat sangat nak kecoh2 plak.

Korang jangan tak tau yang GM dia da diresign kan sbb masalah event tu. Aku tak respon apa apa kepada sebarang berita yg di beritahu. And they keep saying things like, "korg yang ptt tanya kitorg, korg yg ptt update kitorg, korg yg patut cr kitorg." Well hello bitches, ader bende yg we need to update on our side we will update, but if it suppose to come from ur side, korg la kena update kitorg. How in the world that we going to know yg ader changes in the name list if u dont update us??

Tezz. They are so annoying. Dahla ader satu minah tu, nak berangin je keje dia. Kan da makan muke fak it aku. Mmg depan2 dia aku buat bitchy aku, especially bila dia tgh marah. Adoi. Ader kah sbb dorg ni dah kaya buat MLM, menyebabkan dorg ni rasa we all need to respect them like kings and queens while we are the khadam?? Stoopid.

So, when i called them today, they told me this:

"I'm sorry Cik Wanee, we had a meeting with our boss and he said he will leave all the payment to the lawyer. Our lawyer will contact you later."

Waw. I was, of course shocked!! Tapi aku dgn slumber nye pg meja boss and inform dia. Alahai. Keja senang da jadi susah. Nak sangat sue kenapa. Tak ke membazir duit semua tu. Bukan banyak pun ko kena bayar. 50k je kot. Ini la melayu punye minded kan.. Tak boleh la nak tolong sesama sendiri. Dodol.

Bos aku mesti la jem kan. Aku buat bodoh je. Tapi tak lama aku nyer buat bodo, bos aku dtg meja aku, bg satu fon number...

"Wanee, awak kol dia ni, ni kita punya lawyer. Awak give her all the information that she needs ok."

What???? adesss!!! Aku tak nak handle boleh tak?? Mana aku tau nak cakap apa. Aku tak nak masuk court lah weyh! Sah sah aku ni pelupe. Nanti kalau org tanya aku macam macam..camne aku nak jawab. Kang tak pasal2 angkat sumpah pastu menipu jugak. Bengong ah. Aku tak pernah jumpa client yang sebegini nye cara pk. Tapi aku jem sbb aku project manager event tu. Konfirm org akan cakap aku yg salah.

Tezz..sabar je la aku. By the way.. apa pun yang berlaku sekarang.. aku tak kisah..Stress macam mana pun tadi tak masuk kepala aku hari ini..yang penting, malam ni aku nak balik seremban..tak sabar!! ahahahha.

Happy Holiday ppl!!

Have you ever.

You had been searching for one thing for so long. Been trying so hard until you gave up and put a full stop towards your effort. And that is when you decided to let it be.

Suddenly, something unexpected happens. You were walking blankly on the street and something caught your eyes. And suddenly your blood is streaming excitedly in your veins and your heart beats were dancing to something that is not sure. So without doubt, you decided to choose that one eventho you knew that you had better before.

At one moment, you woke up in the middle of the night, you looked at it by the side of your bed, and wondering. Why do you choose this one. Why do you wasted on this one. You realize that you has no answer for every questions that you had in your mind.

And you were wondering are you regretting the decision that you had made.

But you were smiling..realizing that maybe it is for you. Maybe you should just let it be by the side of your bed. Keep it near to your heart to heal every pain that you had.

And you were happy enough to have it even though it is not the most expensive, the best quality, or the best thing that it will be.

And you wouldnt care as long as you are happy with it.

That is when you realize, no matter how much you wasted, how much you regret it, it will always be there. No matter how heartless and hurts that it has gave you, you will always let it be there.

That..what we called LOVE...wonderful..yet can be painful.

wat a cold morning.

with my cold heart as always. Sometimes i've been askin myself why do i have to feels this way. Why aku selalu ignoring things, neglecting people, and being complicated days by days. Why cant i just let it be? Why i cant make things less messy and make a smooth run? Hmm. But i believe that is just me. Sesuatu yang differentiate me and the rest of the girls in the world.

I do feels that i've been less complicated. That is what i thought lah.

Expectations. I woke up this morning with a very strange feeling this morning. Of course lah. Its 5.30 am and i am full awake. OMG. bukak tv and tgk Dom. Damn he's hot.

Hmm. Expectations. Aku salu pk yang aku tak dpt bf until now because i've been too choosy. Too fussy. But one person told me once, 'you will never get what you want, so why dont you start looking for what you need'..

I was stunned. And i do put some thought on that statement. But last2, aku tak buat apa apa pun. I decided to put every focus on my job. Because 18hrs after that I realize that I should start building my career and kumpul assets. Love comes and go baby. I had all the best people around me who had been supporting me through thick and thin. Maybe i should just appreciate that.

And since that on aku dah tak pk benda lain selain kerja. Kerja dan facebook.

Without realizing that I'm letting everyone down..and they had to let me go again.

Aku pernah menghabiskan masa 3hr di opis. Been not sleeping for more than 24hrs. And sumenye berbaloi. I've been promoted. But do i had enuf? of course not. Lots of things comes into my mind. i realize i need to do sumthing as back up. So i decided to find the opportunity in business. N then mummy came in and said, wani..u shud buy a house. Owh shit!

So aku pun terus membuat resume n hantar ke Telekom Malaysia. Mungkin not wat i wanted, but being me..as long as it worth it. So it is worth trying.

Apa saja yang Cik Jenab akan masuk kepala sekarang. Eventho sumtimes tak masuk akal. But, who else that i wud listen if its not her.

I'm still looking..or searching for the right path... Something that cud give me at least a bit of warmth in my heart. Its been cold for almost a year now. I gave up on love. Except for the love on my werks.

Apa la crap yang aku tulis kan. Tapi. That is what i felt di pg yg sejuk ni.

Ada pelbagai perasaan yang bercampur. Happy, emo, bahagia, serabut.

And now.. for everything that i've chased..the price that i have to pay.. Losing my only best-friend because he already hates me.

hmm.

I'm sorry baby.. I don't mean too.

Updating venill.

Waw. Lama tak tulis blog. Aku decided nak sambung tulis balik so that ader la antara kawan2 aku yang tau perkembangan hidup aku. Ni asal kol je bising aku tak update dorg. Asal kol je aku kena maki. Kesian aku.

Apparently, since aku berpindah keje, tugasan aku mcm menimbun. Lepas satu, satu. Adoi pening. Sama cam Capital, aku jugak buat pocket event kat sini. Mungkin mmg kepakaran aku buat set up last minit ni agaknye. Hehehe. Bezanya kat sini, aku terlibat dgn persediaan proposal... ha baru tau nak cari ayat2 yang letop untuk mennyiapkan proposal. Baru tau tak tdo mlm semata2 nak siapkan pitching. Lalala. But i love it. At least ader improvement la dalam hidup aku kan.

For now aku handle Astro Gda. But basically. aku baru je habiskan Ads4Bucks award night. Seriously that is my worst event. Aku tak tau mana puncanya. Pada aku dedua pihak pun salah. Dorg terlalu rely on us while we plak tak asks good questions. Damn. Takpe la. Da lepas kan. Cuma yang aku jem arini, tetibe plak org dorg nak tempik2 aku. Adus. Takleh cakap elok2 agaknye. Kuang hajaq!. Tapi biarla. Tak kemana pun org tu. Nak kurang ajar pun aku ttp better than u guys. So, fuck it.

Dr segi hidup aku plak, alhamdulillah. Dah boleh bernafas sikit. Masih meniti tangga, tapi aku da nampak perubahan nye. Semoga tahun ni akan diberkati dan di murah kan rezeki. Aku da banyak plan da nak buat tahun ni. Cuma nak organize kan dia je supaya ia berjalan di waktu yang sesuai dan seperti yang di rancang. Amin.

Aku rasa since new year hidup aku tak terurus. Dengan proposal yang tak putus, pastu event. Pastu siapkan another proposal, and now, preparing for GDA plak. waw. Sampai masa untuk diri sendiri pun takde. Aku mampu nak selitkan time utk family je. Jadi kawan2, harap maaflah ye.

By the way, aku da start belajar masak. Tak tau la kenapa, tapi cam minat plak memasak skrg. Ehehe. Lepas la aku masak sayur goreng. lalalala. Untuk behavior aku. Aku masih ada baran aku bila tgh buat keje. Tapi selebihnye aku masih gile. Berlebih gile pun mungkin. Orang kat opis aku ni pun bukan betul. Aku da takde PMS sakai yang boleh buat aku cakar orang tu. Ahahhaha. Good eh.

And selebihnya, jiwa aku semakin tenang. Expectation aku da tak terlalu tinggi, dan suprisingly bila kita tak put too much hopes, what you get will always be more than what u expected. Alhamdulillah. Dan aku semakin tersenyum. Hee. Personal plak, hmm..sama je. Masih membiarkan diri di cari orang instead of aku mencari org. Ehehe.

Ok ok. Da tak tau nak tulis apa lagi. Nanti aku update lagi yer. Habai!